I thought by preparing for the worst in my health situation, it would probably lessen the impact should any bad news come my way. I had really tried looking at the brighter side of things and wished that the big lump on my neck was probably just an infection of the thyroid gland and that the ‘swelling’ would go away with some medication. It wasn’t the case. And on top of that, my ultrasound scan results showed that there were 5 other growths in my thyroid with 2 of them showing signs of malignancy (vascularity/blood vessels and calcification). I expected not-so-good news but I didn’t think it would hit me that hard in real time. I really dread the thought of going under the knife and the risks involved. The fact that the doctor had initially classified my case as non-urgent yet I had to keep going back to hospital every week for consultation and tests and then he suddenly dropped the bomb saying I had growths in my neck that might be cancerous. Thank you very much.
I’m so hating the public route now – the whole process really sucked. I discovered the lump in mid-June but till today, I still couldn’t get a definite answer. But when it comes to the charges and costs for every test I have to undergo, the hospital is always on top of things. SERIOUSLY? All I want to know is whether I have cancer and if I do, what’s the next step?
I decided to seek a second opinion from a private senior consultant yesterday and finally did my FNA biopsy for the two ‘potentially-cancerous’ growths. Results will be out on Friday. Had to do a chest X-ray too cos’ my windpipe might be displaced due to the large growth. Well, there’s no doubt, I still have to go under the knife cos’ my lump is just too big to be ignored but at least I’m feeling more confident cos’ I’m in the good hands of a renowned expert in thyroid surgery and thyroid cancer.
Very low in positive energy recently because the grief from losing a loved one to breast cancer just a few weeks ago has kind of weighed on me. Uncle S who is a lymphoma survivor visited me a couple of days ago and while he made sense with his words of encouragement, I couldn’t help but feel even more scared and depressed. All I can do is to take each day one step at a time.
I just want to keep this post simple with a homey recipe of fried rice with smoked duck breast and kai-lan – smokiness, saltiness and crunch, all in one.
Smoked Duck Fried Rice Recipe
Ingredients (serves 2-3)
4 cups cooked brown rice (preferably kept overnight in fridge)
1 piece smoked duck breast, skin removed & diced
220g kai-lan (or Chinese broccoli/kale), chopped
100g anchovies, fried or oven-baked to crisp
3 cloves garlic, finely chopped
1 tbsp light soy sauce
2 tsp vegetable oil
1. Heat oil in pan and pan-fry duck breast till lightly golden brown. Remove and set aside.
2. In the same pan, saute garlic till fragrant. Stir fry the kai-lan briefly for about a minute till the leaves start to wilt.
3. Add the rice and break apart any lumps with the spatula. Season with light soy sauce.
4. Add the crispy anchovies and return the duck breast to the pan. Stir fry till well combined.